I am not good with patience and I am especially not good at waiting for God to reveal His exact plan. Fortunately, God knows this so He is constantly placing opportunities for me to learn this in my path! Ha ha!
I want the easy answers, I want the whole plan to be revealed all at once, I want to know when to say yes and move forward, and I want to know when to say no this isn't the way. Fact of the matter - God doesn't really work within the realm of what I want! He works for His will and His path and His direction!
You may be wondering - ok so what's the point with this post? Why are you saying this? What's on your mind? Well - this is something that I have struggled with on many occassions but specifically in regards to a job opportunity that has come across my path this week.
The job is being an aide in one of the local schools. It isn't what I have my degree in BUT it is working with Special Needs kids which is something that I have a heart for. It isn't the greatest pay and honestly isn't the best of work environments...the only real perk? It is a school schedule meaning I have the same time off as my kids.
I have gone back and forth all day about this and you know the funny thing? I haven't even been OFFERED the job! Ha ha! Yet, I have found myself stressing over it...This afternoon it dawned on me that once again - I - am trying to weigh this out and figure it out and I am NOT waiting on the Lord and His leadership, direction, etc. SILLY ME!
My heart's desire is to "Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD." Psalm 27:14. I want to wait for HIS perfect timing before I return to full-time work, I want to wait for Him to reveal the job He has for me, His Will - Not My Will!
My lesson today - when faced with a decision or choice I need to be patient, wait for the Lord to give me a peace and direction about it and not worry or fret over it with the knowledge that in HIS time, HE will reveal what I am to do!
I honestly don't know for certain what my decision will be about this particular job - if I am even offered the job - will be. I know what my leaning is, I know how I am feeling about it but I also know that His ways are not my ways and so I am open to what He may do!
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