AGGGHHH!!

Today has been one of those days that has just been really hard to deal with! So much is on my heart and mind, I have literally been "on the go" all day and I am just ready to throw up my hands and scream...

A little 6 yr old girl named Elizabeth and her parents have been on my heart since last night (well really for 2 yrs but more recently since last night). Eli has been fighting a brain tumor for 2 years and last night took a drastic turn for the worse after having had several really good months. As of right now, she is on life support and waiting to see if her body will heal and regain strength...I have to wonder WHY? When everything was going so well, she was really making great progress - Why this set back Lord? Yet, I know that her life is precious to Him and that He holds her close to His heart.

Also found out today that my cousin's 11 week old daughter is in the hospital for the second time this week with RSV. She is not eating due to being so ill. Our son Malachi had RSV and it is scary...it is also scary to have your child in the hospital. So, my prayers have been with them as well.

I started a new job today - driving Special Needs students to schools in Durango twice a day. I have 4 boys in my vehicle and they are so much fun! However - I had a little "kink" in the plan for starting the day!

Tyler came down with a fever Sunday night. Yesterday he seemed to be better for a brief time but as the day progressed - he got worse. By late last night, he was fighting a high fever of 104.5 and very ill! So...Joel had to call in this morning and not drive his bus route, I had drove my route then got home about 9:30 only turn around and take Tyler back to Durango for an 11:40 Dr. appointment. The doctor confirmed what I had suspected - a very severe case of flu. By the time we got to the Doctor's office - Tyler was so weak and sick that they had to wake him up 3 times to examine him - he couldn't even sit up. From the doctor's it was off to Wal-mart for a perscription - where Tyler slept in the car while we waited for 40 min to get the perscription.

By the time I got back to Bayfield - it was time for me to get the school suburban and go back to Durango to pick up the Special Needs kids. My Dad was able to come sit with Tyler while Joel and I did our afternoon routes - thankfully!!!

Afternoon route took a total of 2 hours and 45 min bringing my TOTAL time in the car today to: 5 hours and 45 min!!! All within about a 45 mile radius....UGH!!!!

So - yes, I am exhausted. I don't like my baby boy being sick and my heart goes out to these other two children who are so ill.

I will admit - I get paranoid about Tyler being ill (see history in My Special Needs Story) because when he does get sick - it is never just a small "bug" or anything. It is usually pretty major and knocks him down pretty good! Seeing him laying on the couch with no energy, hot with fever, and so sad - breaks my heart!

Well - this is by far not the most positive post but it is the way today has gone and what is on my mind...as Scarlet O'Hara said "After all, tomorrow is another day!"