Faith, Control, Rest

"Faith recognizes that God is in control of my life."

This was the first sentence in my devotional this morning and boy did I ever need it today. Unfortunately, it wasn't til late this afternoon that I remembered this and was really able to process what God wanted to teach me today!

This morning, I set out with one main goal for the day: Register kids for school here in Borger. As for registering, logistically that went very smoothly...just lots of paperwork. The problem was in my head! The first one on the list to register was Tyler - hind sight says I should have maybe waited til last for him but his was the first school I came to after leaving the house.

As many of you know, Tyler is not only my "baby" he is also the one with the most special needs in regards to hearing loss, speech delays, occupational delays, and learning disabilities. I have talked before about how incredibly blessed we were with a FANTASTIC special education team in Bayfield and yes - I was personally close to all of Tyler's teachers. So I know that this is more than likely the reason that I was literally overwhelmed, sad and anxious as I entered his school! However, the secretary was GREAT and I met the principal who was also very kind and helpful...again the issues were in my head. Would they follow the same plan we had in Bayfield? Would he respond well to teachers and therepists? What about friends? What did I need to do to make it smoother, better, etc? Oh - me of little faith! I don't have control!!!

Second lesson (again not realized til later - I can relate well to the Israelites!): Went to register Hannah at the HS. I decided I would take Joel with me because a.) it's a HUGE High School to this small town girl and b.) I thought we may have to set her schedule and I wanted back up! As it turned out - office was easy to find and there is no scheduling until they officially get her records from Bayfield...What??? I want to know, I want to make sure she is getting in the right classes, I want to meet people....Oh - me of little faith! I don't have control!!!

Third lesson ( didn't take as long to realize but still delayed...when will I learn?): Joel calls and wants to go to the bank to set up an account. Now, in most cases this isn't really a big deal but I am going to go on a limb and be a tad vulnerable: Joel and I do not have the best credit and yes we made some VERY poor financial decisions early in our marriage. These mistakes were almost 7 years ago - but well suffice it to say we are still paying for them; including trouble opening accounts. As I was driving to go meet Joel, I went between praying for God's provision and grace and saying "it won't work, why does he want to even try?" We got to the bank, one of our friends is the store manager of the bank and we had no problems! Oh - me of little faith! I DON'T HAVE CONTROL!!!

That's right - I do not have any control over my life - PRAISE THE LORD!!! He DOES have control and PRAISE THE LORD! Ha ha!!! God has already paved the way for me - I just need to have faith in Him and in His goodness!

"Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see." Hebrews 11:1

I can rest assured knowing that God is control of everything - He has it all covered and doesn't need my assistance, just my obedience!!!